Oh no...I just realised I'm extremely scared of blood. At first I thought I could handle it but it seems I've failed. My mum accidentally cut her finger last night due to the cracked glass cup in the toilet...she forgot to throw it away and I'm really feeling very guilty because if I didn't come into the living room to use the computer for a while, my mum wouldn't have come out to look for me and she wouldn't have gone to the toilet or even cut herself.:( I saw the blood oozing out and all I could do was pass her pieces of tissue paper while she wiped the blood up...I'm so sorry. I wasn't of much help. The moment I saw the blood, I felt my whole body turning into jelly and I had to quickly sit down. hahah. I knew since young that I cannot be a doctor.:PThese few days I'm just catching myself lazing around. hahah. I really don't mind going back to school now.:) Or maybe even meet up with some of my really good friends. heh. Everyday I see my brothers playing gameboy or Wii, Wii and more Wii. I even lost interest in the games already. hahah. well, not totally.:P I'm feeling really terrible now...I don't even know why. I just know I'm not prepared for the future just yet. I want to stop the time now and enjoy every minute of it with my family, friends and everyone else. I'm uncertain about alot of things and I have to learn to let go of some of them...:( It's difficult at first but there is always a first time. I am also coming down with a bad case of flu now...my nose feels like a tap and I keep sneezing and tearing...haiz. Hope I can recover soon.:) I think I should go relax now...Love is selfless-giving.Gladys
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